Oh Hell Yeah!

Blogging Prompt: Are You Holding A Grudge?

Yes! I absolutely am! And I will be for a very long time! There is no way that anyone can quickly get over the things I have been through the past 17 months.

From finding out my husband was having an affair (since October 2023. We didn’t separate until March 2024) with our ex-daughter-in-law and subsequently moving out of our home (granted it was a travel trailer that we had bought for a new beginning as a way to spend 6 months in Texas and 6 months in North Carolina, so we could spend time with family) and into hers, sliding right into a public relationship with her.

Add in their refusal to come clean about blatantly breaking the Seventh Commandment, *the Adultery one* (we are still legally married), all the while going to church and claiming to be good Christians. I have been plainly told their relationship has been blessed by God and they answer to no one but Him. Huh, alrighty then.

When he left our home, he so “graciously” allowed me to stay there. However, every fuckin time he had to come over to take care of anything regarding the home, he made such a stink about it and made me feel like I was inconveniencing him. He made me feel guilty that he made the payments on everything, the camper payment, the lot rent for parking it here in Texas, the propane for cooking and heating … just everything. He had also told me he would give me $150 a week for groceries and necessities, but bitched and complained I spent too much money. For Fuck’s Sake!! I couldn’t win, no matter what I did.

So, I made the decision to move out and in with my adult son, to stop relying on him for anything and start healing from his narcissistic ways. Yeah, I know, I’m accusing him of being a narc with nothing from a medical professional to back it up. Well, not from one he has seen, however MY therapist and MD both say the same thing. He is a bonefied, dyed in the wool, born and bred NARCISSIST!!

Since I moved in with my son, the Narc has taken away the vehicle that is in both our names (but he’s behind in the payments and the finance company calls me every day. I make sure they are up to date on ALL his (and hers) contact information, the garaging location of the vehicle, and where they both work. Ya know, just in case they need that info for repo). Yes, I could take the truck, I have just as much right to it as he does, I just can’t make the payments. So, I watch my credit score that was steadily climbing since October 2024, now continually fall. And I am SO pissed about that I could scream!

The ONLY thing I have that keeps me tied to him in any way is my phone, tablet, and watch. Joke’s on him, I’m 10 steps ahead of him.

So, yeah I’m still holding a grudge. BTW, I am NOT completely blamless in our breakup, but I didn’t have my next relationship lined up 6 months before I left. Nah, that’s ALL on him!