Feral Friday’s

I’m back my Chaos Gremlins with a little story that is just demanding to be told. It’s not really juicy, but it is a bit entertaining to me.

So, here’s a fictitious backstory. Again, this is FICTION, so if any of you who are reading this gets your panties in a knot, that is entirely on you.

Here goes …

You tell everyone you meet that you are a Godly (as in the Christian God) person, you act demure, and on the outside, you appear to be just as you present yourself. But on the inside where no one sees the real you, you are living anything but Godly.

Yes, you go to church, yes, you pray and read your Bible. Hell, you even listen to nothing but Christian music. You do EVERYTHING that outwardly makes you look and even act like you are walking your talk. But, you are hiding some deep dark secrets that are actually eating you alive and at some point may or may not cause your outward illusion to shatter.

You won’t admit to these secrets, you won’t admit you are lying to everyone you encounter, and you refuse to accept that you aren’t living up to the responsibility that your God gave you of being a true testimony to his teachings.

And the bottom is slowly falling out of the things that you have cast into illusions:

Your car breaks down for no apparent reason and even though you are gainfully employed, you don’t have the money to pay for the repairs. So, with some quick thinking and scheming you figure out how to get it repaired under a recall or extended warranty.

You aren’t satisfied in your job, you aren’t making as much money as you feel you are worth. But the money in your paycheck at the end of the week isn’t enough to sustain the lifestyle you want and make sure all your bills are paid and financial obligations are met. And you are OBSESSED with finding the perfect job, paying you what you are worth, but doing as little work in that job as you can get by with.

Too bad you had a great job, but your emotions got the best of you and you burned those bridges with NO hope of ever going back.

The payments for your utilities fall behind and you either let them be suspended or you pay the absolute minimum to keep them functioning until the next disconnect notice comes.

Your mortgage or rent falls behind and you give the mortgage company or landlord a sob story and ask to be able to split the payment into two payments each month, not realizing you are still behind even though you pay each half payment like they agreed on. Interest and late fees still accumulate even on partial payments.

You can’t or don’t buy groceries for your house. Instead, you choose to eat out multiple times each week, compounding the extra spending you think you are saving by splitting the rent or mortgage payments.

You spend, if a female, on things like clothes and makeup, shoes and handbags (designer bags at that!), or just some random shit you think you need in the moment that will make you feel better.

If you are a male, you often spend money on your partner, whether needed or even wanted. You like to “love bomb” them by buying things they didn’t ask for, and didn’t even hint at wanting or needing. You think that if you spend money (that you DON’T have) on them, they will love you more.

You just keep getting farther and farther into debt and don’t even care that your electricity is scheduled to be turned off, or your internet, or Gods forbid, your vehicle gets repossessed. You just keep spending money in such a reckless manner, you can’t see the hole you’ve dug yourself into.

WAIT! What happens if you have a health issue?? You go to the doctor time after time after time. Have all the tests imaginable, but there is nothing to be found? Are you really sick? Or is your God trying to give you signs that He isn’t happy with you and the way you are living?

Instead of lying to God, yourself and everyone around you, shouldn’t you be thinking about what you need to do to REALLY make your life “right” with God? I mean, seriously. What else is going to have to happen to you before you figure it out? Is someone going to have to actually get unalived before you pull your head out of your ass and wake the fuck up?

Yes, my Darling Chaos Gremlins, this is all fiction. For now … but what if it wasn’t? What if these EXACT things were happening to you or someone you swear you love? Wouldn’t any sane person who claims to be a Christian want to make things right with their God before tragedy of any sort strikes?

I know I would.